"God is eagerly waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as he always has. But he can't if you don't pray, and he can't if you don't dream. In short, he can't if you don't believe."
-Jeffrey R. Holland

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Insensitive

First off, I want to say thank you to all of you for the wonderful amount of love and support you have all shown us.  We are truly blessed to have such amazing family and friends in our lives.  If it weren't for all of you, we would not be able to make it through this battle. 
Thank you, and we love you!


I was debating if I wanted to start this blog or not, wondering what people would think about me putting all of our "business" out there for everyone to read.  After I posted, I was pleasantly surprised by how many women privately messaged me to let me know that they, too, have been through this roller coaster of infertility.  I was hoping that by starting this blog, it would help women who were more private about their journey feel comfortable talking to me about it, and that is just what happened.  On the flip side of that, some people were against me writing such personal struggles on here for everyone to read.  To them, I say if I can touch the life of just one woman going through this battle, it is all worth it to me.  This blog is meant more to be a journal for me to express my emotions through this journey.  My happy, my sad, my crazy, my depressing, my joyous days...it's mine.  

My job is insane!  We have currently have 13 kiddos ages 12 weeks-5 years.  We don't have all 13 everyday, but we usually average about 8-10 of them a day.  Lately, my co-workers have been making comments saying, "These kids make me not want my own!!!"  Okay, I know I am not a mom, and I don't fully understand what it's like to have that crazy in my home 24/7, but I don't care.  I would take the loudest, most hyper, energetic child if that meant I could have a child of my own.  The day I had my appointment with my fertility specialist was an especially hectic day at work.  The kids were having a hard time listening and getting along with each other.  On my way out, a co-worker said, "Are you sure you still want kids? You may hope they find something wrong!"  Are you kidding me?  Do you realize that is probably the dumbest question anyone has ever asked me?! Nice timing, too. I understand she was just venting about the craziness of the day, but how insensitive can you get?  

1 comment:

  1. I know that we aren't very close (which makes me sad because I would LOVE to get to know you better) but we are still family and I am so so sorry this is happening to you guys. You two are amazing people and you would make the best parents. We will be praying for you. Don't give up hope, my friend was going through the same thing (except they tried for 5 years) and then a miracle happend! She is now 6 months pregnant and doing great!! I love you both and I hope that someday we will finally meet! :)

    Ashly LaFeber

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