Let's Go #2!

It's probably time to update you all on the latest...

I started my shots last week to start our second round of IUI.  I will go back on Wednesday for a follow-up, and see how many follicles I have developed, and hopefully find out when we can do the procedure.  My guess is that it will happen early next week.  I have been getting bad headaches this time around, but no other symptoms.  I would say I am pretty emotional, but I think I've been that way for the last year or so!  I still cry at everything!  

I don't really know how I feel this time.  I would kind of describe it as numb, but I think that sounds wrong.  Maybe it's because it didn't work last time, so I don't want to get my hopes up this time?  But I know I need to stay positive, and just move on from the last round.  We took last month off to regroup and take a little break, so I was definitely ready to get back in the game.  

At my appointment last week, I noticed my nurse is actually pregnant.  I wanted to say something to her, and just make casual conversation, maybe ask her when she's due...but I didn't.  I sat there wondering what it is like for her.  Here she is working in a fertility clinic, a place where women go who are unable to get pregnant, and she is just that...pregnant.  I wonder how many women treat her differently because of that?  I wonder how many tell her congratulations?  I felt bad for not saying anything to her, so I am going to make a point on Wednesday to tell her congratulations, and ask how far along she is.  I would never want her to feel uncomfortable around me, curious if it made me upset or jealous.  

I found out last week that my sister and Kyhle's best friend's wife are both having GIRLS!  I am so, so excited for both of them, but especially for my sister because I can't wait to get another niece!  I am really looking forward to having a niece live close by that I can love on and spoil.  Come on, August!  

Grateful

What is it about Spring that makes me yearn even more for that sweet little baby?  Maybe it's because the weather is so beautiful, and I wish we could take our little one out on a walk with the dogs, or dress it in beautiful spring colors.  Maybe it's because that's when animals have their babies, and flowers are blooming.  

What am I saying?  I don't care what season or month it is...there is always something going on around me that makes me think, "Man, I wish we had our on little baby to enjoy this with!" 

The last week or so has been a little rough.  I have been super busy at work with a new promotion, and feeling like I just need a break.  I'm hoping things will start to slow down a little once I start to get the hang of this director thing, but until then...phew!

For Thanksgiving, my family has a tradition of writing down things we are grateful for.  It can be anything we think of-- family, food, homes, cars, TV shows, games, sports, friends, church, clothing, exercise, vacations...anything.  After dinner, we pass the bag around, and each person pulls out a paper and reads what it says.  We continue to pass the bag until all the notes are gone.  My sister, Beth, wrote a sweet thankful note about each of her siblings.  My mom pulled the note of what she said about me. 

"I'm grateful for my little sister whose tender heart has room for lots of little ones, including mine, and whose own little ones will be so lucky to be held in her arms."  

I looked over to her with tears in my eyes, and said, "Thank you."  

I don't know if she knows this, but I have kept that little note in my wallet ever since that night.  When I am having a rough day, I will pull it out and read it, and think back to that night and the love I felt from her.  That note means so much to me, and has helped me through some tough days and weeks.  

I know that things will get better and it will all be alright in the end.  I am grateful for a wonderful husband who loves and supports me, and amazing family and friends who are there when I need them.  I am grateful for my nieces and nephews, and all the little ones at my work who I can love and take care of, while I wait to love and take care of my own.  

Pictures

Like many of you, I am a lover of Pinterest.  When I first found out about it, I went pinning crazy.  I have since slowed down, but with the recent possibility of becoming pregnant, I got back into it.  When we eventually do have a teeny tiny baby, I will be turning back to all of my lovely pins.  

I came across a blog that I absolutely love, and am so grateful I found it!  I wanted to share this great idea with all of you, as I know many of you readers of mine are expecting little ones within this year, and I think you should all do this for your babies.  

Enjoy!

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